If I'm being totally honest, last night I looked at pictures from the orphanage and with a sheen of tears thanked God for the clear calling I have to Sacramento. Not because I don't want to go back to Honduras, but because I want to go back so badly, that a clear calling is what I need to keep me stateside.
I am home, have been for the past three weeks, and I am finally slowing down. For the fist three weeks of being home I ran so fast it was crazy. I went from a 25mph lifestyle in Costa Rica to a 80mph lifestyle coming home. But now I am slowing again and the problem with slowing is that it leaves time to think and when before I didn't miss Central America, I now have the time to miss it. Maybe that is why Americans go so dang fast all day, all week, all year. They just don't want to deal with their crap and miss those who are missed.
So what are my big takeaways from the year? If I am being totally honest they have nothing to do with the language, the classes, the Biblical principles. I loved those things, I miss the classes and speaking Spanish. But my big takeaway was this: I found the missing part of my relationship with God. My first semester I had these deep, deep, unanswerable questions and a thirst that could not be quenched by and source. In Honduras I found the answers to my questions in the I AM that created, redeemed, formed, and loves me (Isaiah 43). My second semester I learned how to be in a position to be quenched by the Living Water that has become my satisfaction in a way that is deeper that I can even understand.
So if I am being totally honest (which I am not always) I do miss it. I miss my friends, I miss the understanding that we held as we conversed in a vernacular that was common to our community. I miss my boys at the orphanage and I miss the stillness of my school campus. But I have been satisfied daily by my Lord Jesus Christ and He is enough. So I am good. I am really good.
In August I move to start a program at Sacramento State University where I will study Family Education. It is basically the education to be a Home Ec teacher. After graduating, I hope to use my degree to help moms and children in the social system who need love and education.
My year in Central America is over. It was amazing, challenging, deep, lovely, and I'll cherish it forever. I am so thankful that it happened. And, knowing God, this next year has the potential to be just. as. amazing. So, here we go!
Pura Vida, slacklining, fellowship, Grant.
Emily (always there to process friend), Kayce (forever friend)
Pepito, the only kid I have seen forget his own name.
Osman, He's the closest I have seen to a Morey. He really should be in my family. If only I had the means...
Faithful friend. Miranda Rooms Adams. I miss her.
Kayce, Abi, Erin.
Texas, Germany, California.
Truest of friends.
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